Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Basketball

I just remembered something when I was typing an email to my bff Jackie -

Last night after swimming, I turned in my towel and was walking out of the gym when I went over to the basketball courts to see if the team was playing. By "the team" I mean, the womens varsity basketball team. Maybe some of you know college eligibility rules, maybe not - heres a quick review. Ok so once you sign your NCAA papers you have 5 years to complete 4 years of playing in any sport. I started four years ago in basketball and last spring I went out for track and this year I still have eligilibty left so I am running indoor and outdoor track. BUT I finished all four years of basketball so I cannot play that sport this year.

Anyway, so I saw the team last night, my little point guard D was there with her cute new hair cut, and some new kids and the rest of the veterans. I wanted to walk over there, I wanted to play and be the captain again. I wanted to be a part of the team again. I hadn't expected this wave of emotion to hit me. I actually started to tear up, I tried to hide it but of course B-Rabbit caught me and put that "its ok to be sad about this, you still look cute, its going to be ok" look on his face.

I actually miss basketball - like deep down in my heart, can't hide or keep it a secret. Don't get me wrong, I love love love running. But basketball was my life for 4 years and now its gone and the teams moved on without me. I was like a mother hen with her little chickies and I had to let them all go. I never thought this would all hit me like it did last night; I thought i was over it, moved on but apparently I am not.

2 comments:

Joe said...

I'll never forget my last game of high school soccer. One of the toughest moments was realizing it was over. Same for playing in college. It's tough to move on, especially from something you love so much.

*aron* said...

i played basketball growing up and there is something about the team sport that you will always miss.