I have always been primarily skinny. In high school I maintained a weight around 135-140 (I think), I didn't weight myself much because I was in three sports and eating whatever I wanted - oh to be a teen again. The first year of college I gained 15 solid pounds of muscle as I was playing basketball full time and lifting weights. Even with the weight gain I still felt good and happy with my body. I didn't start to lose that weight until my fourth and fifth years of college when I ran track - but my mileage was low because I was a sprinter so I never really shed a lot of pounds - just changed my body shape. My once basketball body slowly began to morph into more of a runners body.
Fast forward to the beginning of this year, January 2011 when I started seriously training for a half marathon. I was running more mileage than I had ever run before (30 miles a week or more) and I started to lose weight. The training combined with a ton of work and wedding stress, caused me to drop more than a few pounds by the time my half marathon rolled around.
And I liked how I looked; I didn't really notice the weight loss until someone at work mentioned something to me about how skinny I looked. When I finally took a step back and looked at my body I saw that I had lost more than a few pounds. I continued to run through the spring and into the summer, averaging many 30+ mile weeks which for me is a lot compared to before when I was barely managing 20-25 miles a week.
Last week I had a doctors appointment - my old doctor moved away so I had to go and meet my new doctor. She was very nice and asked a few questions about my running and lifestyle and I mentioned how I had lost weight in the past 6 months. She looked up my records from the previous year and we found this:
Last doctors appointment ~ Fall 2010, Weight = 151 pounds
New weight at Doctors, Summer 2011, Weight = 137 pounds
That is a fourteen pound drop in a year. I was shocked. I did not think it was that much. I knew I was skinny, I knew I could fit into my clothes from high school, but I did not know I had lost 14 pounds in over a year. The doctor said it wasn't a major concern YET - she said that I really couldn't afford to lose any more weight because then I would be at risk for problems down the road like low calcium and osteoporosis.
A part of me worries about this weight loss hurting my body, but another part of me is liking the new me. Its not a huge change but I have become leaner and stronger in my running. I figure that I didn't need that extra weight - otherwise my body wouldn't have lost it.
Here are a few pictures from the past few years...
|At Brian's brothers wedding - August 2008|
|End of fifth year of college - College track regionals, May 2009|
|Wedding dress shopping - January 2011|
|My 25th Birthday - March 2011|
|10k Race - June 2011|
|This past weekend at my second bridal shower|
|My MOH and I at my bridal shower|
I think that it took the pictures from this past weekend AND my doctors appointment to finally have it sink in that I have lost weight. I know that I am running more than ever but I think stress from the wedding has also played a role in this. Obviously I have not mentioned much about my stress levels due to the wedding but it has been a struggle. It has been a lot of pressure and stress put on me by my family and I have used running to deal with that stress. Much of this has been extremely personal so I have chosen not to share the painful details because I want to forget a lot of what has happened. Thankfully Brian and my friends have been there for me to help me to see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it will be here soon!
The point is that - even though I have lost weight, I am happy and I am happy with my body. You would think with all the stress I would stress eat and gain weight, but apparently it is the opposite in this case. After the wedding, we will see what happens.